I hope you guys are ready for some honest, deep, almost shameful updates from me. That’s what’s on my heart and on my mind to share right now.
I haven’t blogged in a couple of weeks, part of the reason that I’ve been MIA is that I’m still struggling to get back into good, consistent habits since we came back from vacation at the very end of May. So for two months I’ve been slipping back up in weight again.
I feel sad, like I’ve let you all down somehow.
The truth is that I’ve let myself down too, putting my immediate desires over the long term desire to be the healthiest person I can be.
Now neither of the two thoughts above, about letting myself and others down is really helpful at all. I’m working to find new thoughts that can replace those. I want thoughts that will inspire me to make positive, lasting change in my habits.
My real goal is to inspire others to work toward their goals – whether it’s weight loss or something else. I want to give others hope, practical advice and teach you the things I’ve learned.
But in the last couple of months I’ve felt anything but inspired. I’m in a funk and I’m trying to claw my way out of it.
I could blame it on a lot of things, however it really just boils down to a lack of focus. I’ve been focused on other things besides my weight loss goal and helping others to reach their own. I’m still an accountant too and there was a lot of work to catch up on when I came back from vacation. Since May we’ve also had a hurricane, house guests, taken on new responsibilities in our volunteer groups, etc. There have also been personnel changes at work that added to my stress.
In the end, I have no one to blame for my lack of progress but myself.
And that is the most painful part.
At the same time it is the most empowering.
I chose to put work, my family and my friends ahead of my weight goals. That was a season, but I’m ready to move on. I’m ready to start blogging and consistently living a Ketogenic lifestyle again.
There are plenty of hills and valleys on this road to a healthy body. I want to be the guide you need to get there safely so hopefully this glimpse into my struggle can help you relate.